clarification

perhaps i should clarify.

"celibacy" refers not to any moral or religious obligations i feel toward abstaining from sex but rather to the total lack of action on my part.



I feel that i am spinster bound but i desperately don't want to die and be eaten by my cats.

I'm not sure which part of me drives off men--the bitter tongue, stinging intellect or general crankiness but i know i want things to change. iwant to open myself up to possibilities beyond teal beads.

tomorrow maybe. tonight i have tv to watch.